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Another not!fic from Tumblr and switching it up to Star Wars! Star Wars was really my first fandom, but it wasn't until the new sequel trilogy that I wrote for it. Well...wrote something I was willing to post publicly. >.> This not!fic was originally posted to Tumblr here.

So I’m getting ready for the day thinking about Star Wars and it occurs to me that Finn has never been kissed, never had sex, never been on a date, NOTHING, because the First Order is probably not going to be too happy about things like sexual and romantic attraction since they’re fans of uniformity and conformity.

And, you know, Finn’s in his early 20s but he was probably 3-4 when he was taken from his family, old enough to know that he was taken but too young to remember anything else but what he’s learned in the Order. Can you just imagine going through puberty in that scenario? How little teenage Finn was probably told his attractions were wrong, and he was alone in those feelings, and how he did his best to push them aside and tamp them down until they were locked up in a little box, deep inside.

(He probably tried to do the same thing with his general compassionate nature, but as we see, he was a lot less successful with that.)

So, you know, now Finn’s with the resistance, kind of unlearning some of the stuff he learned with the Order because even though he broke the programming, there’s still little bits and pieces of things that are deeply embedded that it’s going to take time for him to get rid of.

And then there’s Poe.